A New Leaf

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Yesterday was a bad day. It should have been a great day-it was Mardi Gras, I accomplished a lot, and I have 3 beautiful children who I get to squeeze all day long. However, it was eclipsed by Landen throwing up all over himself in the car when we were showing houses out in Queen Creek (at the very first house mind you), waiting in line FOREVER at the Post Office, and other annoyances that irked me throughout the day. The thing that set it off though, was my friend Renee had her first baby yesterday morning two weeks early and she is beautiful. It both made me so happy for her, and made me burst into tears out of self pity that I am so flippin miserable all the time carrying these two babies. Once the self pity drained away, I remembered that so many people are never even able to have children and even more don't ever have twins so I should feel lucky to be able to experience this, so then the guilt hit me and I felt even worse.

So now, I am going to try my hardest to stop focusing on how much I hurt all the time, how swollen my feet and ankles are, and how I feel like there is permanent fire in my throat which prevents me from sleeping more than 4 hours at a time. I am going to stop stressing out about how much we have to get done before the twins get here and just enjoy being able to have the opportunity to prepare for a life with 5 children.

Braden just finished the kids new giant dressers so now we have a place to put the insane amount of laundry scattered around my house. We are getting this mini bunk bed for the kids, right now they are sleeping on our floor in their doggie sleeping bags from Pottery Barn (we just love those).

Today we will pick out paint colors for the rooms and on Saturday the walls are getting painted, and the carpets are getting cleaned, so by the beginning of next week, I'll have some progress to show everyone!

Now I have to start picking out fabrics for bedding & curtains, and look for white frames for the nursery. The nesting phase has fully hit me, so hopefully I can embrace it and try and make these last few weeks (hopefully days) a bit more tolerable.

Oh, and I wanted to share this blog with you-whenever I get frustrated with my kids or just with my life I read her beautiful blog and it never fails to bring me to tears with gratitude.


  1. Hang in there Rosemary! Your babies will be here before you know it! I can't wait to see them!

  2. *had to delete my original comment because I had sooo many spelling mistakes....I need hooked on phonics :(

    Rosemary you are amazing! Seriously the amount that you accomplish in a day would have me totally frazzled. Your nursery colors are BEAUTIFUL! http://www.younghouselove.com/2010/02/nursery-progress-lets-reflect-for-a-bit/ go to this link and this super cute couple is doing a nursery with similar colors for a girl--sooo cute! Oh and Kali and Kai beg me for that bunk bed everytime we go to Ikea. Love ya & can't wait to see those babies :)

  3. Rosemary. You are wonder woman and you most certainly allowed to have a rough day. Please call me or text me when you need a break or help or anything. Or if Braden needs help as long as beer and Braden are involved you know he will be there. We can come help with nursery/ Just let me know, seriously you better! You are the best mom, and all 5 kids plus Braden are very lucky to have you!

  4. Don't feel guilty for being miserable, I am alwys miserable being pregnant with one baby! You manage to cook, clean, work, create *bows down*

    Do you use slings? I make baby carriers for a living and I'd love to get you set up with one if it would be something that you'd use!

  5. I've never used baby slings before with my other kids. We have those baby bjorn backpacks but I always felt like I was suffocating them when they're all pressed up against me. Maybe a baby sling would be good for the twins though.

  6. I completely understand having a rough day and just needing to say it...when I went in for my 8 week appointment it was stressful. Not only did I find that there was a beautiful life growing inside of me, but there were two! We could not hear the heartbeat so I was sent to a specialist only to find out that one of my twins had not made it and I could possibly lose the other. I just think of all the trials we have to go through to make it all work out for the babies inside of us to live....so you share those awful days!!!! It helps us get through it all :)