Yesterday was a bad day. It should have been a great day-it was Mardi Gras, I accomplished a lot, and I have 3 beautiful children who I get to squeeze all day long. However, it was eclipsed by Landen throwing up all over himself in the car when we were showing houses out in Queen Creek (at the very first house mind you), waiting in line FOREVER at the Post Office, and other annoyances that irked me throughout the day. The thing that set it off though, was my friend Renee had her first baby yesterday morning two weeks early and she is beautiful. It both made me so happy for her, and made me burst into tears out of self pity that I am so flippin miserable all the time carrying these two babies. Once the self pity drained away, I remembered that so many people are never even able to have children and even more don't ever have twins so I should feel lucky to be able to experience this, so then the guilt hit me and I felt even worse.
So now, I am going to try my hardest to stop focusing on how much I hurt all the time, how swollen my feet and ankles are, and how I feel like there is permanent fire in my throat which prevents me from sleeping more than 4 hours at a time. I am going to stop stressing out about how much we have to get done before the twins get here and just enjoy being able to have the opportunity to prepare for a life with 5 children.
Braden just finished the kids new giant dressers so now we have a place to put the insane amount of laundry scattered around my house. We are getting this mini bunk bed for the kids, right now they are sleeping on our floor in their doggie sleeping bags from Pottery Barn (we just love those).
Today we will pick out paint colors for the rooms and on Saturday the walls are getting painted, and the carpets are getting cleaned, so by the beginning of next week, I'll have some progress to show everyone!
Now I have to start picking out fabrics for bedding & curtains, and look for white frames for the nursery. The nesting phase has fully hit me, so hopefully I can embrace it and try and make these last few weeks (hopefully days) a bit more tolerable.
Oh, and I wanted to share this blog with you-whenever I get frustrated with my kids or just with my life I read her beautiful blog and it never fails to bring me to tears with gratitude.